I’d give quite a bit to be able to go back to my senior year of high school, even for a day or two.
Back when romance was new. When songs were written about me, our biggest worry was not seeing each other for a weekend, and we had this indescribable fascination with one other.
Back when I was surrounded by my best friends all the time. When we did something different and fun every day in the summer, laughed until we cried at our lunch table, and went on road trips to amazing concerts.
Back when I was involved in something that I absolutely adored. When I got to sing every single day, made amazing friends that I know I’ll keep throughout my lifetime, and had some pretty incredible, once-in-a-lifetime experiences.
Since leaving for college, it’s as if the weight of the world has slowly crept upon my shoulders without me noticing. I’m forced into making decisions about my future ten years from now, when I don’t even have next week figured out yet. Stress has found its way into my relationship, and we’ve been forced to grow up together. Some friendships have ended due to distance and lack of maintenance. And there’s been strain on my family due to a budget that’s stretched a bit too tightly to cover everyone’s needs.
I miss the times last year and throughout high school when my worries were simple. The most ironic part is, I couldn’t wait to leave for college. I suppose the grass is always greener on the other side, isn’t it?