I just need to be home. Everything is so overwhelming here. I feel like I’m alone, even though I’m surrounded by people. Everyone has tried to shove their beliefs down my throat about this, & I don’t want to hear it. I just want support, but no one is willing to give it. Hearing everyone say that there’s no hope is literally tearing me to pieces. I wait until everyone is gone to fall apart, but it always happens. I need someone to reassure me, tell me that maybe there’s some hope. That maybe, just maybe, this was enough of a wakeup call for things to really be different this time around. That maybe the threat of losing me would somehow have enough of an impact. Everyone is saying that really losing me is the only thing that will be eye-opening enough, but I’m praying this works, because that is the last thing on this earth that I want to do. When we’re together, things are perfect. People here say that’s not good enough, but I think it is. I think that’s enough to get us through. I just pray that this is a change you are ready & willing to make for me. Because if it isn’t, you’re going to force me into walking away. I just want to prove everybody wrong.